Pentimento- “It’s Okay” (Acoustic)
Recorded for The Garden Statement during their tour
Pentimento is very important
i hate those friendships that just end for no reason you just stop talking
do you ever get a weird crush on someone that’s not even attractive but you’re just attracted to them and you don’t know why
Watching a tv show based on fairy tales and true love while drinking to forget my ex was probably not a good idea.
Im not happy in Wilmington. I’m not happy in apex. I’m really looking forward to the day that I can find a place to call home.
Traveling, whether it be across Europe or just down I-40 to Wilmington has made me realize who my real friends are. It’s odd that I think I’ve always known but at the same time I’m still kind of shocked by it. And yeah feelings come and go. One day I’ll be so happy to have someone in my life and the next I’ll be waiting for the day that I’ll never have to see them again. I don’t know what I’m trying to get at but I can’t sleep and this kind of stuff is on my mind.
The thought of going to grad school in Europe is making me think about friendships and what not too. If I do actually make it over there isn’t it kind of given that I’m going to lose touch with most everyone over here? I mean look how much has changed in 5 months? I’ve changed, other people have changed, everything’s changed. Maybe I’m just being melodramatic but still. Things changed. 2 years, or maybe even longer, could pose to be a real friendship killer. But maybe that’s growing up. Does anyone really keep their grade school friends? Maybe some do but I’ve never thought of myself to fit into that category.
Maybe I just feel that way because I never actually feel strongly about anything. I’ve noticed as of late that my opinions or ideas have been swaying a lot. My feelings towards people and ideas having been altering as well. I think I’m used to just mindlessly agreeing to avoid conflict or just agreeing because I can’t think fast enough to actually think of my own opinion. I’m thinking too much.
I can’t sleep.
I’m over this, I’m over that. I’m over these friends. I’m ready to get this year over with and move on.